by Pam Tremblay
In the moments of existential crisis, that seems to be a rolling motif of my twenties, I find myself coming back to the same question of what’s the point? What is the point of being Catholic? What is the point of doing women’s ministry with college age women? What is the point of living my faith?
In the end the consistent answer is simply “Laugh and grow strong.” These words sometimes attributed to St Ignatius, a man with existential tendencies of his own (cannonballs seem to do that to people), remind me that life isn’t as crazy, or hard, or intricate as my existentialist inclinations makes it out to be.
St Ignatius’ own life exemplifies how God finds us and throws a cannon ball at us when we think we have life figured out and the plans done. And so I am, we are, challenged to see God in all things, not plan/answer all things. For it is, I am coming to see, that when I see God in all things I am able to see that life is good, God is good and I am not responsible to figure it all out.
And so, in the midst of cannonballs and seeking to find God in all things, I am merely called to laugh and grow strong. To laugh at the fact that I have no idea what I am doing or where I am going and to grow with the challenges and experiences that come my way. The point of living my faith is to laugh and grow and the point of being Catholic is to find solace in the words of Scripture that with God’s Wisdom I am “clothed in dignity and strength and [can] laugh without fear of the future” (Proverbs 31:25)
Pamela Tremblay is an Associate Campus Minister at The Catholic University of America. After graduating with a MA in Theology from the University of Notre Dame, Pamela worked in the Diocese of Camden, NJ and at St John’s University in Queens, NY before heading back to her undergraduate alma mater to do Women’s Ministry. As an undergraduate student at CUA, Pamela had the opportunity to meet and hear Fr. James Martin, SJ speak on Joy and the Spiritual Life which sparked her interest in Ignatian Spirituality.